Round Two starting fairly soon; sign up here at lionlamb_lims. :D

Anyone want to join me in doing this? :D

I LOVE THE JONAS BROTHERS, THEY'RE GREAT. ESPECIALLY JOE~

WHY JOE, YOU ASK? LET ME TELL YOU~
~ HE'S THE ONE WITHOUT CURLY HAIR. THAT MAKES HIM UNIQUE~
~ HE DRESSES LIKE A LITTLE BUSINESS MAN. IT'S ADORABLE IN THE WAY LITTLE CHILDREN DRESSED AS ADULTS IS ADORABLE.
~ IF HE COULD INVENT ANYTHING IN THE WORLD, HE WOULD INVENT ICE CREAM THAT NEVER MELTS. THIS IS NECESSARY FOR THE SURVIVAL OF THE SPECIES.
~ HE PUTS HIS POPTARTS IN THE MICROWAVE OR OVEN, NOT THE TOASTER
~ THIS VIDEO:

AND TO MUH FELLOW GRYFFS:

I AM A LION NOW! \O/ OFFICIALLY~

I freaked my mother out the other day. Finally told her about my large thirst/dehydration issue I've been having the past few days. Diabetes runs in our family, my mother being one of those who has it. So she decided, just to be on the safe side, that we should check my blood sugar. She asked if I had eaten anything with calories recently, I told her no and that I hadn't eaten anything in about 6 hours.

So when she saw that my blood sugar levels were at 186 she freaked out. I guess that's completely BAD or something because she started ranting about how I needed to go to the doctor's RIGHT NOW and that I needed to get this taken care of RIGHT NOW.

And then I remembered I had eaten yogurt not even twenty minutes before she checked me. Oops. But at least that means that everything is normal, I guess. XD

It seems a lot of the puffs think I started all this, or at least fueled it more than Michele. Majority wise, blame is being placed on me and not her. Now, I see this as a bit unfair - no, really unfair. I tried to play nice in the beginning, tried to think of her 'feelings', and I got words behind my back and resistance in return. For posting a link for members who didn't have a sub-community friended (and then explaining that), I got called a bitch. For trying to boost morale and enthusiasm, I got accused of trying to turn Hufflepuff in to Gryffindor. Every action, there was a negative aspect Michele could find. And, after I'm sure Michele couldn't think of anything to say, Lorelei was there to do it instead. In the end, I was in tears and frustrated and basically pretending for days up until that final incident to enjoy and be comfortable posting in a house that was being slowly turned away from me.

But sure, blame me. Whatever. I can't bring myself to care anymore, really. The fact that I liked the people in the house, loved many of them, and ended up losing most of those people because of this upsets me. I feel betrayed. And really, I don't think I could ever forgive people for it. I don't think I could ever really look at Hufflepuff, at least the HiH version, in the extreme high regards I once did.

Yes, there are some wonderful people in the house. Yes, I still have some friends from there who I appreciate not abandoning me. But overall, I feel alone among them. I don't feel comfortable posting in the common room at all, I don't even feel comfortable talking to any of them on AIM anymore. I get a lump in my throat when I see any post regarding Hufflepuff at all. And their reactions to me since that day, well. It's as though I don't exist in their eyes. I am invisible to them.

Which is why I'm grateful for the Gryffindors. Despite everything, they have all stood beside me. Even ones that I never talked to before, they commented to tell me they were sorry this happened and that they would welcome me with open arms. Where Hufflepuff loyalty failed me, Gryffindor loyalty wrapped me up in a soft warm blanket and gave me hot cocoa.

If this appeal fails, I am going to cry. I am going to cry long and hard. And then, more than likely, I will leave Hogwarts is Home. I'm not going to stay where I feel like a lesser human being. I am not going to stay where I am uncomfortable. I need to be among people who will not turn their back on me for speaking my mind, and acting in a way I feel is right for me. Friends don't do that.

This is making it sound like I'm upset right now. I'm not, honest. I've actually done fairly well in the community for someone who is afraid to post anything other than responses to appeal questions; I've placed in two contests, and more than likely will be placing in a third before the week is out (unless something drastic changes with voting). I guess I'll just consider it a going away present from me to Hufflepuff. Though chances are they will conveniently ignore it, like they have with my other two placings.

I feel better now. My appeal has been submitted, will hopefully be posted soon, and then I can start answering any questions they throw my way. Additionally, I have alcohol and I've convinced the boyfriend he wants to bring me cupcakes and ice cream so I can get drunk and stuff my face at the same time.

Now if only AIM will let me get in to chatrooms, I would be thrilled.

I'm tired of having to filter things in my journal from some people. I'm also angry that I am finding bits and pieces of my private journal are being mentioned and discussed in other places.

I'm making a friends-cut, basically. A large one. Anyone I feel I can't trust 110% with the information I write is being cut. I honestly don't care if I upset some of you anymore; because honestly, you have hurt me far worse.

My journal is for me to rant, and I should be able to do so without my rants being leaked or talked about by others.

I have been a planning machine. Literally.

-- All prefect-y activities have been discussed with Ing, plans and schedule more or less finalized for the entire term. This includes in-house contests, extra special non-point activities, and everything in between.

-- Have a list of possible challenges for sortedchallenge that, if I don't change my mind, could get me through the rest of term.

-- Posted my History of Magic activity a few days early, just because I had nothing better to do this afternoon

-- Have a post ready for hogwartsicons that will fill my monthly quota. I just need to wait until next term starts in order to post it.

-- Nearly done with my story for the Puff fic exchange. And if I may say so, it is turning out much better than I thought it would.

-- Along the lines of stories, I've been going back through all the hh_writersblock prompts. I plan on finishing them all within next term.


Only thing I still have to do: make the tags for my hh_flourish delivery.


I AM UNSTOPPABLE.

Okay so I'm basically completely ready for Hogsmeade Weekend. I have a lot of caffeine on the ready, already have my posts for the Hogsmeade sale all ready to post. I have my event approved, the ideas behind it -- I haven't written it out yet, but I have time. I'm not posting it until Saturday. :D

ALSO. I have my regular sigtags ready for deliver Saturday, up to date on my roster and activity thread, finally (maybe) finished editing my prefect application, and done with sorting.

I AM ON TOP OF THINGS. Why the hell can't I do this with REAL life? XD

I feel though, that maybe I should come up with a few more ideas for the prefect application. I mean, sure. I may already have about six or seven things planned out (in quite a bit of detail, fuck yes), but that's it. It just feels like I need more.

Also, secretly, I think I desire my application to be four comments long instead of three. Because really, how kick ass would that be?

(However, my Sorted Challenge application has sort of fallen behind. It's extremely short, but there are less questions so I don't mind. I would really love to be a mod for it, yes, however I want to be a PREFECT more.

Tags: applications, hih, history of magic, hogsmeade, prefect

"The mind is not a book, to be opened at will and examined at leisure."

Am I crazy for wanting this as a tattoo? Am I?

(I need a Remus/Marauders and Neville ones too, but I may as well get awesome Severus too right?)

I found THIS drawing, and I'm thinking about asking the artist if they'd mind terribly if I got a tattoo of it. XD

PLEASE TELL ME IF I AM ABSOLUTELY NUTS, AS TATTOOS ARE RATHER PERMANENT.

I am posting this for Alex, because it reminds me of her - and many of my other Gryffindor buddies. In a nice, loving sort of way. Of course. :]

I keep checking the system to see if my activity has been approved or not. I know I'm being completely aggravating and impatient, but I can't help it! I want to post my activity! (If I don't get to post it I'll be off schedule by an entire month. This would not be good for my brain.) I hate relying on others. I think that's my main issue with being a club leader so far.

I don't remember falling asleep last night at all. One minute my thoughts were 'I should go shut off the light probably' and the next it was 'Oh shit it's too early'. I hate nights like that, as I always wake up so tired regardless of how much sleep I actually get.

Quidditch tonight! :D The majority of the team I'm playing with tonight are playing their first game. Has me completely freaked out, but I'll have Steph there as beater so it's all good. She helped me through my first game, I'm sure we can do the same for the first-timers. Then again they may not need help; they're all three pretty hard players when it comes to getting out there and doing activities and anything else to get points for Hufflepuff.

Oh, and I finished my tags for Hogsmeade! Well, mostly anyway - if I think of something else to do I'll definitely make more. :]

Speaking of Hogsmeade, I'm going to be putting up a sign-up for the log I'll be doing to keep track of who has done what activities for the puffs who want to go for bonus points. Basically a sorting log, only I'll be updating it at least twice a day during Hogsmeade and PMing them the ones they've yet to get. I fear I'm insane for doing this.

Am I doing too much this time for Hogsmeade? Most definitely. Will I be completely burned out after? Probably. Will it be worth it? Fuck yes.

WHY DID I EVER STOP LISTENING TO WIZARD ROCK? <3

K I BETTER BE APPROVED TO BE A BEE; I'VE ALREADY CHANGED MUH PROFILE AND LAYOUT TO REFLECT IT. <3

I submitted my essay-thing for hih_animagus; ended up going with the European Honey Bee. While the Wombat and Formosan Black Bear were AWESOME and I felt bad for saying no, the power of the bee was just too powerful.

TOO POWERFUL.

It was hard writing the essay though, since there's virtually no actual information about bees other than weird dances they do to communicate and differences between drones and the queen. I honestly just barely made the word minimum. XD

BUT I WILL BE A HONEY BEE AND WILL HAVE MANY PRETTY FLOWERS AND DELICIOUS HONEY AND IT WILL BE WONDERFUL.